I was thinking about the song Stairway to Heaven by Led Zeppelin yesterday. So I pulled up the words on Google and read back over them. They really didn’t make much sense to me except when he sang, “and she’s buying a stairway to heaven.” It makes me think of the times in my life that I thought I could buy my way on up that stairway.
For years into my Christian life I followed the Savior pretty good by my own standards. I made my way up the stairway just fine without much looking back. Putting one foot in front of the other I marched up each step by living according to the rules. My children were in church every Sunday, I was a submissive wife and I served in the capacity anyone asked me to at the church. Personal time with the Lord was hard to come by but I was “doing” everything I could on my end. I just kept dragging myself up that stairway so I could hear those much coveted words “Well done good and faithful servant.” Matthew 25:23
Eventually there came that time when I could no longer climb those stairs. I stumbled and fell to the bottom. As I lay there crumpled up in a heap, I felt completely defeated. Now I would not hear those words I had so longed to hear, “Well done my good and faithful servant.” Where were all those “rules”, “obligations”, and “works” when I needed them most?
The truth is they were dead….they had always been dead, I just didn’t know it.
For some reason salvation for me included working to make God proud of me, working to keep up appearances for other Christians, and striving to serve and prove my love for God. But after lying in a pit of deep despair and sin for a while, I finally gave up and came to the end of myself.
Flash forward to a new day, today! What have I learned about that Stairway to Heaven? There isn’t one! And guess what? There’s no drudgery, working, striving, or pleasing to get to the top in order to hear those words I so wanted to hear. Amazingly enough the Father loves me just as I am. When I became His child He created me new, complete, whole, beautiful, and precious in His sight. Now I understand God’s Holy Spirit lives in me giving me a “want to” and desire to be like Jesus. There’s no working at it to make it happen but only resting in Him to let it happen. It has freed me to be the woman of God I was created to be. I can take off the masks that I’ve been hiding behind for so many years. Now in those times when I listen to the Spirit I naturally, I mean “supernaturally” do what He’s calling me to do. My motivation for serving our God is love, and oh how I love Him because He first loved me. 1 John 4:9