The Grace Full Woman has finally realized that she can’t forgive herself. Have you ever thought you’d hear such a thing? Certainly it’s necessary to forgive yourself before you can live in the fullness of God’s grace, right?
Well I’ve never found Scripture to back that up, have you? I’ve heard it from other women, teachers, read it in magazines, and watched it discussed on Oprah but I’ve not read it in the Bible.
However I have struggled with it. For years I could accept God’s forgiveness of my past sins but I felt I could never forgive myself. This was one of the biggest hurdles I had to overcome before I could move on to a grace full life. This belief held me back and though I prayed for help I could never let go of the fact that I did not deserve forgiveness, so I just couldn’t give it to myself.
In reality I don’t think I accepted that God had completely forgiven me. I think I believed I still owed Him something for the sins of the past and so I would go on making it up to Him the rest of my life. Part of that being never forgiving myself. The truth is God’s forgiveness is so complete that forgiving myself is not even an issue. Jesus Christ has already done it all for me. There is nothing left for me to forgive because my past has been wiped clean by the blood Jesus Christ.
Trying to forgive myself is like trying to give myself salvation. It can’t be done. Once I truly believed and accepted God’s complete forgiveness of my sins, past, present and future, Colossians 2:13-14 then I was free to know I didn’t have to forgive something that had already been wiped clean from my life. Yes there were going to be left over consequences that I would experience but forgiving myself need not be one of those consequences.
To hold this over my own head when God had forgiven me was in a way prideful. Think about it, who was I to live out of the identity of a no good sinner full of shame and guilt when my Father in heaven had made me a new creation 2 Corinthians 5:17. He says I’m fully forgiven, a saint, righteous in His sight, His beloved, and more than a conqueror, who am I to say different? Who are you to say different about yourself?
Yes the grace full woman knows she’s forgiven and she knows it’s enough.